So I've started this new devotional book and the first day it talked about the story of Martha when Jesus came to visit her and her sister Mary. Martha was so busy doing things FOR Jesus and not spending time WITH Jesus. I took a look at my own life and I realized that I can catch myself doing that a lot. Stephen and I are involved in lots with the church and we DO a lot of things FOR Jesus but how much time do we really spend just being WITH Him. I just need to get my priorities in order. Especially since Lucas has come into our lives I feel like I can find a million things to do instead of just stopping and spending time with my Savior. So right now daddy has Lucas and mommy is spending time in her Bible and worshiping her heavenly father.
Luke 10:38-42
Diapers
That is what my life has become. It is amazing how much diapers a baby can go through. I mean everyone always tells you, you go through a lot and I had this mental image about how much "a lot" is and well I was off by a lot.
This cute little thing
Can produce this
In just a matter of a few days.
Thank goodness for the diaper genie or we would be swimming in diapers I think. And we would probably smell horrible too! But on the bright side of so many diapers at least I know my baby is getting enough to eat! We went to the doctors on Monday and he had gained 2 oz from his birth weight. So they said he was just a healthy boy. Speaking of healthy boy I hear him crying so before he wakes up dad I better go get him!
It has been a week since our son was born. Stephen and I love being parents! But it is definitely emotionally draining. I think we have felt every emotion under the sun this past week. We have felt happy, excited, relieved, blessed, loved, proud, encouraged, and just plain wonderful. But we have also felt frustrated, angry, inadequate, scared, nervous, and lonely. Weird how all these emotions can be going on all in one day. But I know that every time I look at Lucas that this is exactly where we are suppose to be and that I wouldn't change anything for the world. He is the best and watch out ladies he is way to handsome he will probably blow your socks off! We gave him his first bath a few days ago he did not like that and I realized I didn't like giving it to him. He was just so sad and I felt horrible that I was the one making him that way. But then I had to think of all the times in his life where I am going to make him upset just for the simple fact of protecting him and that I'm going to have to get over it and learn that it is more important sometimes to make your child mad and upset than the consequences if you don't. Stephen and I have also felt truly blessed for all the people that have come and visited and our friends that have provided meals and company for us. We are seriously some of the luckiest people in the world. I have also had to deal with a different emotion this week, I have actually missed work. I think I just miss the routine of it all and I definitely miss the girls. And I miss it because I was good at it. I knew what I was doing. And I've realized and felt that with being a parent I don't really know what I'm doing sometimes. I just know that I love this child with a love I didn't know I was able to. And maybe that is all that really matters I mean essentially is to just love and you'll figure the rest out as you go!
After long anticipation our son Lucas finally arrived! He was born on January 2nd, 2010. He was 8 lbs 3 oz. and 20 inches long. What a great way to start off the new year. Stephen and I were getting a little discouraged because we really wanted Lucas to come before the first but the new year rolled around and it didn't look like Lucas was coming any time soon. Stephen and I had decided that on the first we would have a few friends over for games and a movie. We finally got everyone out of the house by 12:30 a.m. A few hours later at 4:00 a.m. I woke up to my water breaking. About a million emotions hit me right then. I was nervous and scared and happy and a little bit more nervous and scared. Stephen and I packed up the car and worked our way up to the hospital. I wasn't feeling any contractions yet but by the time we settled and got admitted into the hospital I started feeling them. And the next 11 and a half hours was the most painful crazy time ever!!!! But I did it all naturally which I was quite proud and when it was all over the pain was definitely worth it. We had our very healthy son who everyone says looks like me. I still can't believe everything we have been through the last few days. Last night was our first night with Lucas at home with us and we were kinda scared how it was going to go but he is a good eater and a good sleeper it is mom and dad who have to adjust now! We are feeling pretty good today though trying to fit into our new role as parents. This blog is going to be dedicated to that adventure and watching our son grow up and become the man of God we know he will be.
Also this week my best friend Kelsey turned 20 years old. And we had a murder mystery party for her at my house. It was fun we had 7 people over to play and we laughed and joked and dressed up all silly. I made yummy spaghetti and this amazing peanut butter cake which I have to say I have consumed way too much of. Happy Birthday Kelsey Rae!
And last but not definitely not least, starting on Saturday we got a crazy amount of snow. We have way too much snow. Stephen got stuck outside our house and everything. So to say the least me and Lucas are stuck inside for the next few days. Hopefully the snow won't last long but they are predicting more next week so I think it might be a while. So if you need to know where we are I believe we are officially snowed in....
