one week

It has been a week since our son was born. Stephen and I love being parents! But it is definitely emotionally draining. I think we have felt every emotion under the sun this past week. We have felt happy, excited, relieved, blessed, loved, proud, encouraged, and just plain wonderful. But we have also felt frustrated, angry, inadequate, scared, nervous, and lonely. Weird how all these emotions can be going on all in one day. But I know that every time I look at Lucas that this is exactly where we are suppose to be and that I wouldn't change anything for the world. He is the best and watch out ladies he is way to handsome he will probably blow your socks off! We gave him his first bath a few days ago he did not like that and I realized I didn't like giving it to him. He was just so sad and I felt horrible that I was the one making him that way. But then I had to think of all the times in his life where I am going to make him upset just for the simple fact of protecting him and that I'm going to have to get over it and learn that it is more important sometimes to make your child mad and upset than the consequences if you don't. Stephen and I have also felt truly blessed for all the people that have come and visited and our friends that have provided meals and company for us. We are seriously some of the luckiest people in the world. I have also had to deal with a different emotion this week, I have actually missed work. I think I just miss the routine of it all and I definitely miss the girls. And I miss it because I was good at it. I knew what I was doing. And I've realized and felt that with being a parent I don't really know what I'm doing sometimes. I just know that I love this child with a love I didn't know I was able to. And maybe that is all that really matters I mean essentially is to just love and you'll figure the rest out as you go!